Right now every blog and news site around the world is putting together their year in review. It would be remiss of me not to join in, I’ve checked the archives and I certainly attempted it before. The emphasis is on attempt as they read like lists of training and racing without much to take forward. I want this year’s review to be a little more personal and point you to my season review on Endurance Corner if you’re after training specifics.
Yet training is where I start. The year began with Epic Camp, riding the length of New Zealand over sixteen days. The atmosphere and encouragement those camps foster is always a positive experience, navigating an entire country took it to a new level. I’d reached the fitness where a week of Epic was fine, so this year they’d thrown in two! Physically and mentally challenging beyond previous camps somehow I got through seeing amazing scenery on route.
I fully appreciated the real value of this and all the other camps I’ve done on a recent ride. The weather wasn’t much, but with a group of capable cyclists we could push each other. It’s not that I don’t work when training alone, but I work better in a group. Swim, bike or run I can see the value of having a team. They may have their own goals, but each member pushes the others a little bit further. Were I to take this as a lesson it’s not about exotic training camps, it’s about finding situations and people that make you work.
Throughout life I’ve sought stability, believing a certain level of income would bring happiness. I was an accumulator of things and an avoider of experiences. A couple of years travelling destroyed that viewpoint, I’ve returned to the UK as someone who relishes challenges and seeks out change. Despite knowing this the end of my hiatus from reality brought me to a low point of the year. There was the positive of being amongst family and friends, but a self-indulgent regret I was no longer entirely free to do as I liked.
Eventually I recognised that balancing earning a living with racing was a challenge even if it didn’t involve new countries, climates or training. I’d written about making a ‘sustainable‘ life in endurance sports, but apparently been unprepared when the task arrived. Denial is always a mistake the sooner you accept a situation the sooner you can deal with it. I embraced the challenge as I had before and got serious about coaching.
Seriously coaching required change. Establishing principles on which my services would be based and recognising the need to add value beyond one size fits all plans. There are fundamentals to training that return results, but a coach needs to offer something beyond what you read in books. Fundamental to this is the feedback loop and the ability to interpret and adapt to an athlete’s requirements. I needed to work on my communication and constantly expand my coaching knowledge to provide athletes with the best program possible.
In that respect this website changed, it became a platform to develop my viewpoints. If this blog had a purpose it was to track my life around the globe, whilst that hasn’t vanished there’s less to follow. The (hopefully) interesting aspect of my life isn’t what I’m doing, but what I’m reading, thinking and deciding. Readers have followed me solidifying viewpoints as I attempt to take experiences and apply them to a broader audience. I’ve enjoyed making this change and the challenge of becoming a more competent writer, definitely an area I want to visit more in the future.
I hadn’t abandoned seriously training, the summer months were a very focussed period in my athletic life. Ambitions were strong and motivation high I pushed hard, tried new approaches and managed one good result before I broke! Two years of pushing myself and I finally took things a little too far. I’ve written about the injury more than enough, but rarely about burn out.
More significant than the physical impact on training was the loss of drive. I felt confident about my fitness and ability to develop this, but had doubts about my desire. Start me training and I’m fine, but first you have to start me training. It wasn’t laziness I filled my time with work and activity, I simply wasn’t as drawn to putting in the hours. When you’ve chosen something as a lifestyle it’s scary to find yourself wavering.
It remains an issue. Motivation fluctuates when it’s there I work harder than ever, the problem comes when it’s absent. I don’t think I’m burnt out, I enjoy training, I still have challenging goals in racing, but it doesn’t feel as it did. Perhaps this is an ongoing adjustment to balancing training with work and I’m overreacting to a lighter schedule than the past.
I considered just focussing on coaching. I don’t need to be a highly active athlete to coach well, just coaching would do more to make me a better coach (specificity!) I pondered this on yesterday’s run, the idea of taking a year out from my training and putting the same energy into coaching. Having the time to read and research more, work with others and develop my skills. Whether I could really abandon my training is another question I suspect I’d find myself drawn back.
There’s more uncertainty in my life than I experienced at any point abroad. At times it’s a cause for concern when it possesses the potential to hamper some of my goals, but it’s far from a negative. My problem is deciding what’s most important to me, I don’t lack for opportunity. How far do I want to take coaching in the coming year? How much do I want sub-9 at Austria? How important is going to Kona? What about the chance to perform well at Challenge Henley? I’ll be honest there’s a lot of motivation in peaking for a home event.
I don’t need to make any resolutions for a couple of days, there’s still time to decide! This year has been filled with change and reminded me of the importance of adaptability. It’s not taken me where I might have expected, but it’s been fun along the way and set the bar high for 2011.
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